Last night I had a dream about my mom. In real life, she was in bed and in pain for the last several months of her life, and this was the setting in my dream, too. We knew she wouldn’t be with us much longer, and so did she.
And so, as she did in real life during her last days, she smiled for us.
Though I woke up missing her, it brought to mind several things for which I’m grateful. I thought about saving a few of my “thankfulnesses” to use on days down the road…in case I can’t think of anything. But that’s silly.
So, here’s today’s gratitude list:
- I still have my dad. Losing my mom woke me to the emotional reality that life ends. Of course, logically, I knew that. People I love will not be with me forever.
- Seeing my mom in bed made me grateful I can get out of bed, even when I don’t want to–like this morning.
- I still see my mom’s smile–on my own face, on the faces of my siblings and children, and even on Tommy.
- In things like a smile, people I love will be with me forever.